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'NIGH7MARES' is a (FUCKING JOKE) girlhop demo album (recorded 1987-2007) found on arisuchan.jp forums (July 6, 2016)

"i am miserable, and i've finally realized that my only purpose in this life is to make others suffer for it. all of my school life i had to live being bullied by almost everyone, when i didn't even deserve it. and even when i began trusting somebody and thinking they were people i could find peace, happiness or comfort with, it turned out i was wrong, and they'd abuse me. and then i found out that even if people liked something that i did (even though i have never really been good at pretty much anything in my life, except for a few things where i was strangely better with) they will still see me as less than an human being, and will never say to me that i'm good at anything. my existence means nothing to anybody. i hate that i exist, i wish i never existed in the first place. but the truth is, i hate all of them, and for the short time i have left to exist, i will make of these creatures something less than me. they will be reduced to nothing, and the people that love them will suffer their loss, even though they were disgusting and ultimately worthless. all of you are filth. i'm doing the right thing, really. humans are ugly. all of you actually repulse me. you people just didn't care enough to see me for who i really was, but you just saw a caricature of me, one that could be mocked for the expense of a dumb fucking joke and laughs, one to take advantage of for being the both mentally weak and physically weak, becuase you just thought it was right to do so. you saw yourself as better than me and you saw it fit to humilliate me for your perception of me being inferior to you. and if it wasn't that, it was to take advantage of me for what i was better than you, and then use me for your own gain, yet you wouldn't admit or recognize my help, because it didn't mean anything to you. everybody laughed at me for just existing, for minding my business. you made me the punchline of the joke. i never did anything to anybody. i had enough. i could have been something, but all you did was make me an empty shell of myself. none of you ever fucking cared. none of you believed in me. none of you wanted me to get better, and you actually made an effort in not letting me get better. you made me the way i am today. if you just let me be, if you didn't fucking disturb me as much as you did, i would simply have chosen to just end my meaningless, pathetic life. no one would give a fuck, it would affect no one, and you all could just happily keep on with your lives, like the sickening human that you are, but the truth is, i hate all of you too much to not take some of you with me, to whatever there is that await us, and i hope it is all eternal suffering, because that is all that you made me feel when i was alive. for some minutes, i will be God, i will BE fucking God."

- Juana (aka SANDGIRL), 2011

[NEW JERSEY] June 1, 2004 stabbing incident at a park: 3 killed, 1 suspect wearing a Ronald McDonald costume arrested. the suspect has been convicted for voluntary manslaughter and sentenced for 17 years.